why? I want to know why...

I am fed up with things right now.  My faith has been tested over and over again and I have remained strong in my faith through it all.  In saying that, I have had it.  Why must my husband have to work 4 jobs in all the free time he has just to support us?  I was let go from my job 2 months ago or so and am now a stay at home mother to 2.  I am 8 months pregnant with our 3rd and should be having fun planning and getting things ready, but am I?  No because we have no money to buy things, no free time together to set things up, and no childcare so we can be free to do what we need to do without distraction.  We are hard workers, church going, God believing, and loyal people, so why us?  Is it because God is testing us and our faith, or is it possibly that this is life and we all must deal with it?  I get so down when I see my friends and family going out, buying things, having fun, etc. while I sit at home with my kids day after day because we have no money to do anything. I hear people say they're broke or tight on money, but yet see them out to dinner with friends that I turned down and going shopping for things that I can only wish of having at this time.  Are we all broke and we are the only disciplined ones or are they all better off and just saying they're tight?  I often wonder if people get it when we say we're broke...we mean we have no extra money.  This week my husband had to use my credit card to get gas for work since he drives an hour each way.  He stays in town 2-3 times a week to save gas, so we don't get to see him as often as we'd like which adds more stress to me because it is up to me to cook, clean, do homework, discipline, bathe the kids, potty train and clean up after accidents, do bedtime routines and more every night all by myself.  I understand that I'm a stay at home mom so it is expected of me, however I am 8 months pregnant, supposed to rest and can't because I'm always needed by one kid for something.  We can't even afford a babysitter for one night to just get away and relax....if we could, we would, but wait we would need money to go do something.  You see what I'm saying here?  This is a horrible cycle and I don't know how to stop it.  My husband keeps looking for Executive chef jobs that would pay signifigantly more, however they are hard to come by.  I want to go back to school after I have the baby, but how?  If we can't afford childcare how will I go?  I already have student loan debt from other college days.  I am so overwhelmed and tired.  I am a free spirit, I don't like to plan out my life, I just want to enjoy it again.  Why must the world revolve around money?  My world revolves around God and belief that he will provide what we need and more, but when will things happen for us?  We are faithful and dilligent in all that we do, so why does it seem that those who cheat, lie, treat people like crap, and don't care succeed?  Why must there be so many questions in life?  God never said life would be easy, however I would appreciate a break here and there to breathe and enjoy my family and friends without constantly worrying if there is money to pay for gas there and back, a cheap meal, clothes for the kids and so on.  I write this because I'm sure I'm not the only Christian out there that has these thoughts.  Many people put on a brave face and say they have faith, but deep down feel defeated like I do right now.  I am always talking about faith to my husband and encouraging him to believe that things will work out, but I don't have it in me to even tell myself that today.  God is great!  He takes care of us, looks out for us, provides for us, and does more than we can see, so I feel bad doubting his plan, but as a human some things just don't make sense.  I do believe that God has a bigger plan for us that we can't even imagine, but I would like to see a glimpse of it.  I don't want to fade away, I want to do things with my life, give to people in need, show my kids the amazing world God created, and enjoy life the way God intended us to. 
So, in closing I will say if you feel this way too, pray!  Pray for yourself and believe deep down that it will come to pass, pray for others that you know and don't know.  The power of prayer is amazing and if we would all put our faith together and truly believe that change will come, I know it can and will.